Twitter Box

i just placed a twitter box at the right panel of my blog. i update this pretty frequently, almost the same frequency as my facebook to keep posted :D you might discover what my real personality is :D take care

Disby boxy

I just set-up a box on the right pannel that states "TOK2MI".
Basically, its a way for you, my dear readers to chat with me or to talk to me :D
have fun and looking forward on our conversations soon. Take care

Daemon... uplifting -

In the recent days, i have been going through the net scavenging ways to take back the chemistry that we once had. One that i have learned is that i have to be good again. Go back to the kind of guy that i was before i was hit by the depression. At least that way, i could go back to who i was with him the first time. If he still moves away, then atleast i was able to find myself. If i turn successful, he will know that he can still be a part of that. The about 2 days ago, i was ramaging through the blogs i follow, i found this interesting connection with a blogger. I related so much to the posts that he was making. Feeling down yet was still able to stand up after and actually have fun. Im learning from him so i can fix my situation with my guy right now. I just hope it works though, all the while being able to find a friend in other people.. :D

The blog im referring to is now placed in the blogs i follow at the right area of this blog >>>>

im getting up this time

i got beat up
i got dropped down
dont trust nobody
have ta' look at your shoulders constantly

Its best to have friends...

sometimes, when the world has delt its cards, its better to make your own deck with your own rules for the game. Thats where friends and love ones come along. I've been having a hard time recently, from my sister leaving, to the amount of work in school, and the frequency of additional stuff to take care of. Love life wasnt much of a help either so i resorted to something more open, my friends. Mark has always been a good friend to me, helped me by being a shoulder to cry on and a friend to talk to. He is my best male friend. Another friend that i would like to commend is Kristin, she doesnt know the entire situation, but even though, shes helped me so much also. I have tried to be there for both Mark and Kristin and i hope its serves its purpose :D to my best of friends, i miss you and thank you for being there :D

All I do need is…

Today might just be another day in the countless days that has made the world a different place. For the ocean of people, this might just be another day. But for me, this day has changed. A man has changed me, forcing me to mature. I welcome the change. Though I slip once-in-awhile, I am welcoming the change. I stand in my fault driven pavement created by the rocky roads of the past and the childish skills. Now I understand that the actions has already taken its toll. I have made him fall out in some ways. The nonsense calls that I make, desperate to hear his voice again. To my exceedingly nagging sentences, thinking that the worst is always coming. Today, I realize that thinking nothing but positive for him does help. There was once a time that I was convulsing mentally, worrying that he might have lost his phone coz he wasn’t texting, only to learn that he left his phone accidentally due to a rush of things. The cost was great. I called a friend, and asked about him and another friend that was there in that area of work. The truth might have slipped. I had to know that he’s ok. My intentions were just as clean as crystal, but just as the crystal, the light was bended to the other direction where I did not intend it to be. My intentions wouldn’t justify my action. Now, I am stuck again between a rock and a hard place. But compared to him, I only taste a drop in water in his ocean of problems. I have divulged him things that I could just share the closest of friends, but there are more secrets that I have that I will be confiding. (I wonder if he will ever confide to me again). I think im trust worthy, I think im a good man but now that all this things are happening. I feel the need to rethink that I have still many things to learn - from him, my self, my experience, and all the other countless sources that I will encounter. I have waited for so so long for a man like him. And no matter how rich a man can be, he can never afford a man like him to fade. The truth is, I NEED to let him stay – for my sanities sake. I need to experience a love that would last with a good man. Is he the good man that I have waited for, or is he the greatest man that I can never keep. And I don’t know if I am worthy. So I stand now in my fault driven pavement, welcoming change. A change for the better. If he reads this, know that I am in the verge of change so please just give me time… all I need is time.

From the dear author…

Feelgay

Mr. Wishful thinking

Stand up. Walk to the door. i have to clean the little corners of my mind...

Old Antics has to Leave

May it be called need or may it be called want. Never-the-less, Guys4men has been referred to as a requirement for gay guys across the globe. A sort of sanctuary that exists due to the fact that there is no other way for some to meet other people of the same kind. Everyone participating there are most certainly gay, confused, or curious. It also does away from the risk that the guy your meeting and "dating" is just a kind straight dude. But as sure as you are that that guy is gay maybe, you wont experience the sweating moments, butterflies in the stomach and the shaking hands. Most guys there are plainly there for the usual sexual encounter -- dull, shallow, and unemotional. Thats why some guys, like me, are opting to just bump into Mr. Right and get hitched from there on. But before that even happens, im going to concentrate on my real friends and just stay away from such sites. Some of you who are reading this might have a different perspective. Please do comment, i'd like to know what you think....

I AM NOT A GOOD DRINKER

About two years ago was the last time I got wasted, luckily it happened in the presence of my Brother and my Cousin. Now after two years, i got the crave of experiencing the black-out of memories with the same set of people. Now, dont get me wrong, I'm the kind of person that doesn't actually like drinking and going to heaven. More like i was the kind of guy that limits himself when getting tipsy was well on its way. The reason is simple, I AM NOT A GOOD DRINKEr -- three shots and im out.

Anyway, going back to the previews topic.. about what happened.

It all started with the idle moments in life. The time in life that you get stuck at home, doing house hold choirs and cleaning like there's no tomorrow. Well, who can blame me? but seriously, for me, that is just way too feminine. So, i decided to do something a bit stupid, a bit manly, and a bit random. I drank. I drank vodka and gin. In no time, i got knocked out and i was sleeping in the bed. As i woked up, first thing i checked was any chunks of meat on my face. :D haha
This is the picture of me that they took with my camera. esh :D

New Mornings

Waking up with Another


past new days' been lonely and empty
stuck in a place called my bedroom
i wake up with Me,Myself and I
i wanted to wake up for another

grasp the glass and made coffee
the bitter taste of groggy
i crept to the bench outside the house
played the dog and wondered aloof

i stare at another day as the sun rose
and crept again to view the bird
i took my shot and there we have it L&G
coffee works, waking up with another

i am SINGLE, i am FREE

Been Single for almost a month now and i am loving the single life. Not in the reasons like going out for sex because god knows i dont do that. More like i love the freedom, the attention that you give yourself in order to improve. I've taken film making in UP Baguio and would be going to enroll for piano lessons in Musar. Would be traveling to a couple of beaches soon and would learn surfing, hopefully. One other good practice while im single is finding new friends. I do friend dating, which means that i go out and spend time with people and be real humans with them (with no shenanigans after). But then again, i am only human... im lucky still though, im not feeling the crave to be human. :D

Getting Older Fun

My 21st birthday

This marks my 21st birthday and a half a year to my blog :D
im not really a celebrating kind of person...  :D

I am ARIES

I'm an Aries 

soon i shall look like this (dreaming :D haha ) without the horns and shield thingy haha :D

Break-up Season

WTF! This is seriously break up season or something... so soooo weird...

BREAK BEFORE RAIN

(part 1.0)
by: Von Adrian Lora Flores

I was walking down the once empty stairs of cathedral but now a boy sat at the very end soaked from the rain. I stood wondering why he sat there at the very end where the shelter could not reach him. His cloths were of good quality. Great shoes, im thinking Nike. Tattered shorts and shirt that looked designer made - it fit him perfectly. His face had certain flare of content, almost glad with his rain drenched cloths. Then i remembered the umbrella stuck away in the trunk of my car. I ran, i ran frantically. Up the stairs then to my car until i realized that i was now standing in the rain, opening the trunk to take the umbrella. I grasped it quickly and turned to the stairs. I stopped, I haulted, I was gazing at him as he stood there at the top of the stairs, looking at me. Now i was in the rain,panting, and he was staring at me. No longer is the contented expression seen in his face, rather, a look of unease now engulfed him. His eyes-brows nearing each other and his mouth slightly open. I had the umbrella on my hand, but i did not open it. I just stood there.

Diving Lessons

OMFG, that was seriously funny.. i never thought I'd be wearing this in our house! haha :D


It all started with cleaning the aquarium, you have no idea how dirty it was.. 4 years without cleaning it.. damn.. lemme give you an example: sooo murky that the other side of the 20inch width aquarium cant even be seen; when pouring the water, you kinda get the feeling of mud at times. well, its a good thing i was able to clean it within a day :D

after that, thanks to our nanny, the process was speedup due to her advance cleaning of the pebbles and ornaments.. anyway.... so i was already in the process of fixing the aquarium to its original look and feel but then again, something happened to the center tube thingy that gives off air bubbles at the middle.. i dived it, and since my shirt got wet, took it off... couldn't see the underwater part so i placed snorkels. i was laughing the whole time.. i even breathed in water int he process! ahhahaha imagine, getting drowned inside an aquarium.. funny as hell :D

Its one of those things that are just far far funnier when your actually there :D haaahha

I am Space Monkey

In recent days, i have found Baguio to be heating up so i made a quick decision to go get my head razored with a 0 measurement..

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY SPACE MONKEY...

Been wanting to get my head like this for months now but since for some unknown reason, most nursing schools have banned this type of practice. Too bad though, i actually like this type of cut.. its fresh, clean, and low maintenance. Plus, when you go for duty, you have the option of taking a bath or not haha.. just for the rush :D

And so i say "Cheers to a shaved head, Its nice to say goodbye to shampoo! haha

(so those are what the little guys are doing while talking to me :D)

Challenge 1: Album Art

im now doing an album art for an international Opera Singer.... Juan Alberto Garlan....

My work will be among the choices for the final design. If i am chosen, my name will be in the cover :D yhey! im happy :) guys, wish me luck, sana nga ma pili yung sakin :D here is a sample of it :D its not yet done ofcourse :D

UPDATE:

here is the final cover...




AWE.. i wasnt chosen.. well i am after all the underdog... i was up against a well known veteran.... wish me luck next time :D

FLU season '09

 


careful guys, its flu season.

wahhh! been having this flu for quite sometime now.. eyes feel VERY tired. They even sank alittle. And i have been having hallucinations and massive head aches.. I wanted to get a vaccine but i stumbled into this...

According to statistics, January, February, March and May are the highest number of flu cases. Although there has been wide spread of flu vaccines in many areas across the world, the problem with such a promising vaccine is that the flu is composed of several strains of it. just think, there's a new strain of influenza every season. Manufacturers usually take about 6 months for a particular strain before they even have a vaccine ready...

guys, be careful... its flu season :D

Muscle maker 2009

Introducing the all new Muscle Maker 2009!

This revolutionary tool is SLOW, HARD & PAINFUL!

It has all the amazing features you crave for. Huge muscles after 2 months.

With just about 10 work out patterns per day, you will be fit and right and ready to run in the beach, parading your form!

With the help of slim down drinks like "fit and right", you will be in tip top shape in 2 months :D

might be as hard as hell to do, but the final result will definitely be worth checking out :D

thanks DATSWHY for inspiring me :D

oh, btw, this is the body i need to work with :D

Caroling

i found this song while looking for a song about chirstmas just awhile back. quite amazed. feels like bob marley in the chirstmas mood